Been a really long time

It has been almost 3 years since I even thought about this site. Sitting here at 2:45 in the morning, it just occurs to me that I even have one. Alot has happened in the past few years, way more than I can write at one time. So I will just hit the highlights and hopefully discuss the rest at a later time.

First and foremost I lost the love of my life a little over a year ago. We would have been married for 25 years this past October. It was sudden and completely horrible. I miss him so much and would do just about anything to have him with me again.

As a result of his passing, I really got to see the true side of his family. I was basically ignored and not acknowledged by most, not all, of them. I have still been in contact with his father and the only reason for that is Sabrina. If she had not been here, they probably would have never talked to me at all. I would never have guessed that a family that accepted me for all those years and acted like they truely loved me would have acted that way. Oh, well the way I look at it is one day they will have to answer for it.

I now have three grandchildren with another on the way. Skyler and Seth will be four this year and Miss Sydnee will be two in a month or so. I love them very much and spend as much time as I can, which has been a lot this summer, with them.

I got down in my back this past Februray and have been seeing a Chiropractor ever since. At first it was everyday and now it is just once a week. I haven't been doing really well since I went to once a week, so I think I will have to do it more often.

Sabrina, my beautiful and talented daughter, will be ten next month. I can't believe how she is growing and maturing. She is still quite small for her age and she is very self conscious about the fact, but she is beautiful. She can still wear a size 6x-7 in clothes, which makes her perfect for her new sport. She has joined a competition cheer team in Princeton, West Virginia and I am very proud of her progress. We have traveled the 45 minutes one way three to four days a week for practices, workshops and clinics and she is blossoming. Her first competition is not until December so I know she will be ready at that time.

I am looking at moving away from Tazewell soon. I need a change and Sabrina is going to be finishing elementary school this coming year, so it won't be too rough on her to move. I have been looking southward, the only thing that bothers me is my sons and my grandchildren. I know that moving away will leave them on their own and I am not sure that they can handle it on their own. My mom keeps telling me to cut the cord and let them make it on their own, but I really have a hard time letting go.

Well its now 3:15  a.m. and I really should be in bed, especially since I have my two grandsons that will be up and raring to go at around 9 in the morning. Love my kids, my grandkids, but uncertain about my life and the direction its going. Decisions, decisions, maybe I will dream of him and he will help me choose the right path. Love you Stacy Bennett!